This week has been full of some of the most amazing highs and horrible lows. Had the harrowing experience of my first corporate job. Nearly went insane trying to make sure it was a job done to a high standard while having moved so far out of my comfort zone it wasn't funny. It was really scary but when finished it was such a buzz. Then to put the icing on the cake (an appropriate saying I feel) one of the cupcakes turned up on Sunrise, which was a bit of a thrill. It was a bit mangled by the time it turned up on tele but I suppose it had been rolling around in Kochie's car and that can't be helped.
I had a magnificent time at the movies with my friends. I love my friends. The movies were great and I love the Twilight stories. The romance and heartbreak of youth. God I'm glad I am not there anymore. Jacob reminds me of Ben. Okay he may never have had the abs but he has always been my personal sun. The new movie was beautiful and I enjoyed it but the whole experience was enhanced by seeing it at midnight with my friends. It wouldn't have been so special without them. Sad that my lovely Relle didn't get to see it with us (again) and I hope her family all feel better very soon.
My beautiful Emma did her Confirmation on Thursday night. I am so proud of her. She picked a lovely dress to wear that was both appropriate for the occasion and elegant enough to show off her sense of style. She was a little nervous but managed to hold it all together and have a great evening. Okay so I worked out at the end of the evening that she had been wearing her cardigan upside down the whole time but nobody else knew so what the heck.
Did the sport carnival today. Well I say I did the sports carnival but really all I had to do was be there to cheer the kids on and have a big wave and a smile for the little ones and some tissues for the older ones. I have my two and Jessie's two to wave at and Jess has my two and her two and it all works out in the end. Jess was keeping an eye on the little ones and I was watching the older two. Emma ran her race and I noticed at the end that she was hugging Sharon. I watched for a bit and Sharon noticed and motioned that I needed to come over. Emma was in tears. It had been a long term (11 weeks), she was up late the night before with confirmation, she hates running and to top it all off she was hormonal. Em was certain they weren't going to make her run then all of a sudden she got thrown into the race. It all became too much by the end of 100 metres and she burst into tears. I got over there and gave her a hug and told her everything would be okay but by then her best bud Alyssa was also in tears. The two of them are so in sync that they both just lost it together. They are such beautiful girls and have lovely friends. Their friends were worrying and trying to make them feel better and the two of them were in tears and I was trying to hug them both at once and they are both nearly the same height as me yet trying to curl in and have a good sob. It must have looked rediculous. The girls were all hovering around fretting and the boys were all looking from a distance not sure what to do. I nearly burst out laughing, thinking it wasn't going to get any easier for the boys to understand it all. The two little ones did well in their races and were generally happy with the day, so that was a wonderful part of the day. I got to drive all the kids home in the afternoon and it was all so silly in the car that I haven't laughed so hard in ages. I love the joy of children. There is nothing like it.
Bad part of the week. One of my favourite teachers has had a terrible moment in her life. Leah is one of those rare people who make such a huge difference to the children she comes in contact with. She is a beautiful soul. Today her husband passed away. I don't think there is anything more to say. She has been blessed with three beautiful children who will grow up without the father that loved them so dearly. My heart breaks for her and her children. Such a waste of a good man. So many people leave the world never having made it a better place, yet good, kind people are taken away so soon. The school feels it is inappropriate to organise some sort of fund raiser or event because they don't want to show favouritism when there are needy families in the community. They have failed to come to grips with the fact that there are people in the school community who need to have a way to show their love and support for someone who has put so much love and support into our community.
So now I sit here having a bottle or two of wine and a good cry trying to count all my blessings and put my feelings down on the current equivalent of paper. I have had the most amazing highs and horrible lows this week. My psychiatrist would probably recommend more drugs. This is life in its extemes. Anyone who is able to read this is obviously someone I value and love. I wish for you all the highs and joy life can bring and not so many of the lows. I guess you can't truely appreciate the wonderful moments without knowing the possibilities of pain and loss. I still wish you love and happiness.
xxxx
